I've been like that on and off the past year. Adjusting my meds helped me. That is a horrible feeling your having. Only other depressed people get it.

I've been there before. I HATED this little autistic kid in my neighborhood would just play basketball by himself. It made no sense and there was no basis for it. It felt so weird and bothered me (because I knew the kid was just being a kid and he didn't deserve it) UNTIL I read a book of essays. I still have the book and circled the paragraph because it made so much sense. I'll type out the paragraph below "Most negative emotional reactions are you identifying a disassociated aspect of yourself. Your "shadow selves" are the parts of you that at some point you were conditioned to believe were "not okay," so you suppressed them and have done everything in your power to not acknowledge them. You don't actually dislike these parts of yourself, though. So when you see somebody else displaying on of those traits, it's infuriating, not because you inherently dislike it, but because you have to fight your desire to filly integrate it into your consciousness. The things you love about others are the things you love about yourself. The things you hate about others are the things you cannot see in yourself." I hated that little kid because he was just enjoying himself by himself and I trained myself to prioritize social situations but I have to plan everything if I want anything to happen. It infuriated me that he could just go outside and play and be happy. The only way to get the true answer is to reflect on yourself and see what she's doing that you miss or have hidden deep down. If you want to read the whole essay, it's the very first essay in Brianna Wiest's "101 Essays that will change the way you think". I think the book is very informative and smart but I also couldn't get myself to pick up the book again after essay #35 because I got bored. I hope I'll get back to it eventually.

This post made me super happy. Thank you for sharing your story. Purrsia is lucky to have such a caring and patient uncle 😊.

You may have PTSD. Consider seeking treatment.

Jesus, I wish I liked my job that much

Be of a strong personality, and when she offends you, tell her that you will not speak to her again, and that you will tell your father

Look I was in a group of people who were smoking sooo bad they even ran out of school just to take a smoke. And I’ll tell you something, doesn’t matter how old you are. Me and my friends were 13 at the time! No one can tell you stop if you don’t want to. We all know that no matter what we the people will find ways to reach their desires. And so what if that happened. Thanks to me almost half of our street got burned down so don’t feel bad. Complexes idiot who can’t even decide for them self will leave a gate comment about how bad it is. So what? If you’re not in trouble take advantage of the situation. All you need to do is just hope your friend won’t stab you in the back...

Not a big deal, but you’re better than that. Don’t do it again.

Dude, stay out of this one. The second you force yourself into this, it will no longer be up to you whether or not you are part of this situation.