I admire both her and her husband a lot… we’re all musicians who are all part of the same local music scene. I’m going through a separation right now, and found comfort in talking with her over text for a few months now. We were both drunk the other night and she texted me and asked to get an Uber to see me… I was honestly reluctant at the time, but I let my guard down and went through with it. We spent hours together having amazing *** and being close to each other like lovers do.. the most intimacy I’ve felt in a long time. I feel impossibly guilty, first and foremost, because not only do I genuinely love her husband but I’m also the product of losing my own marriage to adultery (on my ex’s part). She re***ures me that the whole experience is fine because they’re poly. But since it happened, we both have admitted we can’t stop thinking about each other. I spent years and years being monogamous.. this isn’t something I’m used to, and I know for a fact that this is wrong.. but I legit can’t stop thinking about her. I already know the right thing to do is avoid any further contact, but I’m vulnerable as **** and we also hang out in the same places a lot. I’m not sure what will hit me the hardest.. my role & guilt in the one night stand, the connection we have that can never happen, or the fact I started getting out of the house again in the first place… you’re welcome to call me a ****ty person, I deserve it.. but maybe there’s someone out there who’s been in a similar position